So being a recovering addict (5 years). I myself know the pain, lies, hurt, enjoyment, loneliness and even the lack of. it hasn't been the easiest thing but I can and will continue to keep it up. however today I am a little worried for a family member. He calls to tell me he needs help and I find it. then He stops talking to me. Again a week later he calls and tells me how much he needs to get out and can I help so again I point him in the path I once took! and now I haven't heard from him in 2 days. I know he is dealing and also doing. I also know the pain he is in with the women of his life caught cheating on him.
I know how lonely doing drugs can be at the same time the people who are doing them with you seem to understand more then anyone else. Yet cleaning up I have lost anyone and everyone. I had to start my life over 100% from the ground up. which has been the hardest (harder then cleaning up). I know how afraid people are to clean up and change everything. I asked myself many times was this the right path for me? My answer is always yes. they say the a drug user spends 4 years looking for the drug and 1 year doing it! so where is the enjoyment in looking for something that is going to rob you of everything you have; looks, family, real friends, the simple happiness in life!
here I am just going off like I am on some type of soap box! I'm not I am just interested in your thoughts.
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